2013 Yearender Thoughts: On Life and Living

As I bid 2013 goodbye, let me thank this year for bringing so many challenges in my life. I know that without these trials I will not be able to test how strong I am in the next coming years.

2013 was a good year, despite the hardships and the struggles. There were blessings that came through my way...

After being out of job since the middle of 2010, I had a part time work this 2013. It's not a fabulous and a powerful career like the previous one, in fact, it was a low-key job that I was exactly looking for. A work that doesn't seem to be real work at all. It was the flexibility in time that made me stick to it.

My family was able to survive the first year since my father passed away. It was never an easy year for the rest of us. 

The husband was here in the country for the rest of the year. We made adjustments in our daily routine (mabe and i). We were used in living our lives not having him around physically for a long time.

I stopped working out in a gym this year, but I will definitely go back.

Mabe has grown a lot. She became more independent now, which I am really thankful for.

I had a chance to travel to Baguio once again, together with Mabe.

I learned how to drive this year. 

However, I became more isolated. It's by choice. Staying at home more and not really socializing often. I decided to keep some friends and let go some. This was because of the life lesson's and realities that bit me for the past few years. 

Life is good. Life teaches us lessons we should consider learning from. Life gives us a series of choices to choose from. Life allows us to become who we are. 

Thank you 2013 for the blessings and the challenges. Thank you for giving me the chance to live the life...a very meaningful Life.

A cup of Happiness.

 

A cup of happiness. Everyday. It's been a month since the last blog entry. I've been working like a machine for the past few months. All i need is a cup of joe...and I'm all set again.

8th month...

It's been eight months since my father passed away.

To be honest, I still cannot talk about it without tears. My friend once told me that 'the pain never does go away, time dulls it but it doesn't erase it. It's okay to cry.'

There were times that I would just find myself in tears...feeling so sad and painful in my heart. I miss my father. Writing this post makes me cry again.

Last week I went to Baguio to see my father's family, all of our relatives live there. My grandmother turned 95 and a cousin of mine got a church wedding and aunts and other cousins went home from abroad, it was a great family get together.

I was asked a few times about the day it happened, my father's final moments...I couldn't say a word without tears forming on the corner of my eyes...

Browsing old family photos in my grandmother's home, I found my father in some photographs....smiling, laughing...I cannot bear to look at the precious photos.

It was my father, who brought me and my sister back and forth to Baguio growing up. It was my father who went with me when I decided to study in Baguio. It was my father who ordered me to go back and continue my studies in Bacolod. He was my wall, my sturdy wall keeping me guarded and strong...tough and manly even if I grew up shy and gawky.

When he was older and been living on his small farm, he would listen to my stories and asked me things. Sometimes he would rely on what my opinion and decisions would be. He would follow my orders and requests especially when it comes to his medications.

It was hard losing him. 

I feel so unguarded...the wall was gone.

It's true, the pain will never go away. It's just there in the corner of your heart. 

All I need is to wash it down with tears...until when....I can never tell.

Travel: BAGUIO...my second home.

...these were the photos i took using my old iPhone. 

...baguio will always be closer to my heart.

...the place i called my second home.

Travel: somewhere cold...and rainy.

Yes. Tomorrow Mabe and I will be spending the rest of week in a cold and rainy place which is very close to my heart :)

Will post again soon!

Bye.

Coffee etc.

My usual morning coffee and life these days...can't wait for my holiday-on-school-days getaway with Mabe next week.

I will blog more promise.

10

Yes, she turned 10. Makes me wonder where did all the years go...why so fast?

I now have a tweener blooming. Baby girl no more. My Mabe is turning into a young lady. 

Happy Birthday Mabe!!

You are growing up so fast that I can't sometimes keep up with time. Follow your dreams. I am always here for you.

New Chapter

I have tried relocating my blog to another home, but I realized that I miss the comfort of my original blog in blogspot. I felt so comfortable writing in this kind of simple settings. So I have to make another one in this very same server. 

Breaking free from mysocalledpurplelife. The pseudonym exist for 14 years now, its time to begin a new chapter....to start a new beginning.